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I am feeling blue for no reason at all. I wish there was a word for this feeling. I think there is one, but I don't think it adequately describes the way I feel.

I guess I feel like I've failed. Even when every molecule in my body is telling me to get up and fight this until I can touch the finish line with my bare hands, I am feeling myself give up. What is giving up? It is looking at the sky and watching it rain on the sunniest day of the year.

The more I feel like giving up, the more I know I can't.
I am begging myself, myself, not to give up.