051

si on peut voyager au temps passé, quelle route est-ce que tu choisirais?
si on peut voyager au temps passé, à quelle personne est-ce que tu promettrais ta vie?
si on peut voyager au temps passe...

on veut toujours la possibilité de voyager au temps passe,
mais on oublie, de temps en temps, la beauté du temps présent.

050

已經很久沒聽這首歌了
但今天早上突然找來聽 想起 ...
沒想到我聽不到一分鐘眼睛就充滿了眼淚 開始哭
從來沒有為這首歌哭過

好感動 卻想不起有什麼事情 ... 會引起這個反應?

049

· NTULS 男排 B 隊今天勝利！讚爆了
Q南 有一球發不好結果就冒出個 "幹～" （遮嘴）
場旁的人都轉過來跟我說 “這球記 Q南：幹!" XD

當球莖其實很愉快啊 =) 能夠屬於男排大家庭感覺很溫馨

· LUXY 舞會決定不去了... 有莫方面是因為覺得不舒服, 只有小馬和林柏澄一起去會不對勁 特別... 因為我完全沒有碰過酒 當天晚上我也一定堅持不碰 所以不想給自己創造困擾難過 覺得氣氛不對 要避免那天晚上會感到的傷心。

· 老爸一陣子就要回美國了看媽媽和小弟了 (嫉）哇～ 聖誕節馬上就要到了
明天我要記得去廣南買聖誕卡喔！實驗課之後就要去買
還有 禮拜四 黑黑要載我去買腳踏車 所以我也得盡快去拿證件

aigoo, 晚安 ：）

048

and how did I ever pass you by,
if you were always looking at me.

當我的天空不停著下雨你是我的傘
等待 等待一個永遠不會出現的晴天

047

It takes...

three months away from California to make me fully appreciate the place I left. I was looking through Emilie's photo album when I was on a break from writing labs... I saw the open space, the street painters, the parkside fountains. I saw Emilie and her friends, bundled in boots and scarves and coats, sitting on the benches as if out they spent the day shopping, having coffee, and finally a stroll in the park. I can't find that here. It's completely different, no matter how I look at it.

It's Thanksgiving and I'm in Taiwan. It's not existent here... and I have never been so homesick. If you've never had the fortune to experience it, I can't describe it to you. It's a time of year when family and friends come over for dinners and bring food and good cheer. The streets are full of people, bundled up in earmuffs, boots, and mittens, hustling and bustling everywhere for holiday preparations. The air feels so good, and the spirit of the season permeates everything and everyone. How can you feel dismal when you're surrounded by happiness?

Some people call it stressful and somewhat corporate, and I was no exception to that. But now that I don't have any of it anymore... I miss it so much. I'm learning to appreciate what I have when I do have it, because one day, I might not anymore. This applies to so many recent events and feelings I've been experiencing.

Holiday cheer... is really the greatest blessing I've ever received.

Happy Thanksgiving, everyone.

046

當比賽開始 當槍聲在空中響出 你是兔子 還是烏龜?
我卻兩個都不是 我卻是落後 根本不向前跑的小椰林
在空中晃來晃去，隨著風帶著我走 但我不動 留在原位 慢慢晃

難道我是永遠不敢前進的植物嗎? 我的生命意義... 就這樣嗎?
我以前是完全相反 我要做的事 當我下定決心 沒有任何人有辦法限制我的夢想
不管河是逆著還是順著流 我會堅持前進 達到夢想，再下車

為什麼 我失去了我的堅持?
為什麼 待在原位 我不會在乎?
為什麼 永遠覺得在原位 無法找到快樂
但我已經無力 去追求愉快?

我是否已經放棄我自己了?

045

紀文敏說我很有美國人的風味
ㅠㅠ 有點想哭 文敏說台灣人比較害羞 我比較直接
aigoo 我是不是太兇了 囧 要 mellow 點

(8:00pm)

雙雙想去逛街啦～ 需要買衣服＋新的皮夾啦 QQ
媽媽希望我回美國買衣服 價值比較好
叫我上網去找我想要的衣服 她幫我去買 甚至幫我試穿等 XD 媽媽對我真好
難得買衣服 反正我也不常去逛街
覺得我一個人去逛，特別是在台灣，會怪怪的...
唉 回家買還是比較好
同學們你們來美國玩啦～ 保證不會失望 XD

(10:54pm)

writing a letter to you, reminiscing on everything that happened before I left, is breaking my heart. as the pen moves across the paper and the words come tumbling out, I miss you more than ever. I wish you were here... I never feel quite complete without you.

044

I feel hurt, though the person who hurts the most isn't me. But I don't want to take sides. That never helps. I want to be the needle that sews up the loose stitches... of an otherwise beautiful and perfect dress. Everything will be fine in the end. All it takes is a little patience, an open and forgiving heart, and a smile.

Just smile, forgive, and love.
Love unconditionally. Love with no boundaries. Love with your heart, not with your eyes.

Just love.
You'll never be alone.

043

currently /kicking/ myself for the emo post below = = one song should not have the power to have that kind of impact on me. every high school experience has ups and downs, but it's not worth all the emotions I wrote down there. all of it is in the past, and that's all that matters to me: the fact that it's no longer a part of my present.

even though today was an emotional rollercoaster, too. on a few different levels.

but I don't have time to think about the feelings I experienced today, neither should I make time to think about this when I have other more pressing matters at hand ... like a bio midterm tomorrow morning?

FOCUS.

042

到今天
我還記得非常清楚
那天晚上 永遠存在我腦海裡

這首歌 最後一首歌
每次聽到都引起以前的回憶

還記得 在黑暗安靜的舞池上看到你和你舞伴
還記得 我和我舞伴在舞池上的感覺
還記得 我經常回頭看你
還記得 你臉上的表情 閉上眼睛，慢慢地跳
看到你 發現我們過沒多久就要分開走不同的路
我要回台灣讀大學，你選擇留在加州讀

還記得 我回頭 那天晚上在舞池上
拋棄我們從前的一切
但我們一起走過的友情 無法磨滅

但現在 已經將近三個月沒連絡了
我卻一點感覺都沒有了
以前的事 我已經不放在心上了 對我來講 這已經不算痛苦了
但聽到這首歌
以前的印象突然跑出來

我已經不再害怕了

Two is Better Than One—Boys Like Girls

I remember what you wore on the first day
You came into my life and I thought
"Hey, you know, this could be something"
'Cause everything you do and words you say
You know that it all takes my breath away
And now I'm left with nothing

So maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

I remember every look upon your face
The way you roll your eyes
The way you taste
You make it hard for breathing
'Cause when I close my eyes and drift away
I think of you and everything's okay
I'm finally now believing

That maybe it's true
That I can't live without you
And maybe two is better than one
But there's so much time
To figure out the rest of my life
And you've already got me coming undone
And I'm thinking two is better than one

041

shameless pimping:

http://honeylights.livejournal.com/

The advantage of putting photographs on LJ instead of blogspot is that you can cut it so it doesn't take forever to load on the page. Some pictures will end up there that don't end up on Facebook, and I usually match them with a few lines of English at the end.

: ) documentation of NTU life is coming along nicely!

040

public announcement!

看到這章 PO 文的台灣同學們：

我寒假時會回美國探望家人朋友。機票已經訂好了 ^^ 我回去的時間大概有兩個禮拜，最多也只能待這麼久，還有生科盃要打... 科科...

理論上我行李應該不多，我頂多帶幾件比較保暖衣服回家，幫媽媽帶幾包茶葉鳳梨酥等等！這樣說，我回來就有辦法幫忙帶幾樣你們想在美國買到的東西！譬如說衣服糖果 Move Free 等等。當然我沒有辦法帶太多，所以如果想要我幫你帶東西回來，要盡早跟我講！

還有就是 非常貴的東東我沒辦法: 我知道很多人會希望我在美國幫忙買 iPHONE 4，因為便宜了非常多。其實我擔心的不是錢，我比較擔心的是因為 iPHONE 4 本身很貴重，如果有太多人要我買，我帶回來台灣我害怕有安全的問題，如果發生任何以外很危險。

如果想要我幫忙帶美國貨，盡早跟我說，我才有辦法想我有沒有辦法帶，也要想想我要去哪買才好 XD 希望都塞得下... 嗯嗯!

English translation:

Hello lovelies! : )

I'll be flying home to California for the first time in half a year at the end of first semester, around the end of January, or mid-February. NTU's winter break starts on 1/17, and ends on 2/17(18?), so it's about a month long, but I'll only be back in America for two weeks because I have two sports tournaments to attend here during break... volleyball and badminton : ) I look forward to seeing you guys during my time back in San Jose～ (yes, badminton kids, I will be visiting you!! You guys had better be conditioning/shaping up your game by the time I land in California. Or else.)

On my way back, I won't have much luggage... probably just a few warm pieces of clothing and a few bags of tea and pineapple cakes for my family. Is there anything you guys would like from Taiwan that I can bring you? Snacks, clothes, candy, night market food (jk about that last one)... anything in that range is fine by me : ) If you'd like anything, please be sure to tell me as soon as possible so I can note it and budget enough time to get it for you! E-mail me, FB me, anything of that sort works.

This mostly applies to my Taiwanese friends, but I won't be able to bring the most expensive things (a lot of my classmates are apparently coveting iPhone 4's... and I'm just not too sure how that's going to work out) so sorry about that, in advance. It's not so much the money I'm concerned about, but bringing such expensive items in my luggage is kind of dangerous @@

: )

039

my roommates all went home tonight : ( four people to a room is really awesome when everyone's here, but when all three of them are gone, it feels so empty! when I was at 漁房 my classmates were joking about how some guys should come and stay over ... but that would never happen, considering how conservative I am and how they're not even allowed up to the rooms the first place.

at the same time, I kind of like having the room to myself for a change. I can photobooth without looking like a camerawhore (which I clearly am, as you can tell...) and study... oh yeah, forgot about that part. off I go!

p.s. keke still hooked on this song.

038

today is a day like any other, but tomorrow will be even better.

I need my knitting needles, quick :( I need an outlet for creativity! It's stirring in my stomach every day with no outlet, and I need to get a move on with Christmas gifts. At the rate that I made Kimberly's gift last time, I can produce one hat in five hours if I work nonstop. Which means a day of knitting will yield approximately two (...and a half) hats. Bring it! Daddy will bring them to me from 新竹 next week.

I talked to Claire via Skype today! For those of you who don't know her, you are definitely missing out...

Friends since second grade :) She met a lot of my classmates in 漁房 who caught wind of my conversation and came over. Aish, I miss you, let's talk again, soon.

Study break, over! Back to chemistry.

037

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with every day
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
That's why I need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
and the reason is you

036

Il paraît que les nouvelles ne sont pas si bonnes
Que le moral descend, et que les forces t'abandonnent
J'entends, tous les gens
Parler de tes histoires
Que l'avenir qui t'attend se joue sur le fil du rasoir

Qu'en est-il de l'amour ? Des larmes et de la peine ?
De la vie de tous les jours ? De la paix sereine ?

Allô le monde
Est-ce que tout va bien, allô le monde
Je n'y comprends plus rien, allô le monde
Prends soin de toi, allô le monde
Ne te laisse pas aller comme ça, comme ça

Quel est le nom du mal dont tu subis la fièvre ?
Les étranges idéaux, les hystéries funèbres ?
Dis-moi ce que je peux faire de ma petite place,
quels sont les actes et les mots qui peuvent t'aider à faire face ?
Pousser à la révolte, pour faire le premier pas,
semer pour qu'on récolte, pour crier ton effroi...

♫ Allo Le Monde / Pauline

035

gee compared to the volume of posts I usually churn out, it's been a while!
I guess it's because ...
IT'S MIDTERM SEASON LOVELIESSSSS

time to get slaughtered or ... owned
or hopefully take the ed's off both of those words
and show those exams who's boss : )
加油, 大家!

also, december is an exciting month

· 聖誕之夜 LS christmas celebration! 12/17.
· daddy is going home for christmas. I alternate between being supremely jealous and being supremely excited... because this means I'm in taiwan by myself, which should definitely be an interesting experience. his plane leaves the night of 12/17.
· 九社舞會 dance @ LUXY! 12/20.

but first ... let's go get those midterms.

a reason to start over new, and the reason is you.

♫ The Reason / Hoobastank

034

I want to pull an all-nighter.

... but I know I'll never be able to handle staying awake tomorrow morning. Must. sleep. I will finish this. I'm finally done reading, time to finish practicing.

(p.s.) to anyone who sees this, and hopefully you know who you are ... you really mean the world to me, the way you held me up today in my time of trial. When I was ready to collapse I cried, and you were patient and kind to me when I thought I couldn't hold it together. NTULS is seriously, seriously the best. I promise I'll work even harder.


... also honestly,

I am seeing pictures of my high school on facebook everywhere, and I MISS HOME SO MUCH.

033

我讀這篇中文文章
查生詞查到快哭
雙雙你今晚也別想睡了
但 我一定睡覺之前要把這個
完成～～～！！！！！

覺得我什麼都做不完，做不好
準備期中考 我覺得我在準備失敗而已
要寫報告，準備考試，寫作文
周圍的人的作業比我多好幾背
我卻無法跟上最基本的課程
什麼都混亂

無論如何 不管是準備失敗或成功
到最後我都得把全力擺出來用
衝啊 我要加油

雙雙 你做得到
要有信心。加油喔！！！！！！！！

032

覺得好累，身體也不太舒服。
覺得今天打球有點怪怪的
回到宿舍不太開心 heavy-hearted 全身無力，弱軟
但現在不能休息。。。下禮拜要期中考要認真準備！

所以。。。我給自己打打氣：

雙雙你得加油 不要放棄 現在不要休息 繼續向前衝 你做得到 把全力叫出來用
要開心打起精神來，讀書認真有力
這樣才有辦法成功！
加油加油，一切都會非常值得！！！

031

哭哭

地 點：漁房。李雙：坐大一桌旁邊寫普化 男生：在另外大一桌圍著林柏澄電腦 （周杰倫 “七里香” 開始播放）男生：笑得開心 李雙：我也想看/聽！（快樂跳過去）林柏澄：不要讓她看到!!!!!!!!!! (遮電腦）!!! 李雙：為什麼我不能看?! 李奇展：沒有為什麼 李雙：這樣～喔～ （寂寞戴起夾克帽子慢慢走回原位，繼續寫無趣的普化）～ 落淚 ～ 男生為什麼要欺負女生 （生命大問題）

♫ 髮如雪 / 周杰倫

030

Come out from under my roommate's desk.

I've smacked two of your cousins tonight and you will be the third to die. It's 2:42 AM and I have no time for your games. But I will not sleep until I have you crushed in the palm of my hand. If I sleep, you'll just feast on me as I dream. I WILL NOT LET THAT HAPPEN. I am going to sit here and do chemistry until you show yourself.

COME OUT, YOU COWARD OF A MOSQUITO.

(p.s. I just realized how ridiculous I sound)

(257am)

Fine. I'll sleep. I'll never wake up in time for class tomorrow if I don't.
THIS IS NOT THE END. I WILL HAVE YOUR HEAD IF YOU DARE COME NEAR ME (or my roommates) TONIGHT.

(730am)

HEE I KILLED #3 THIS MORNING.